I just want 2 asked him " wht kind of relationship it is?".,i dont want it just flow like water go through on a stream..,i need to make sure what he wants to me?how long i should wait?just it....is it really difficult for him?
***
I asked u..,"r u serious wth me?"'n then u said "yes, i am serious.,but i....bla..bla..bla...".,
u know.,ur reason hurted me.,i just wanna cried at that time.,but then i took a deep breath.,'n i tried to undestand u. I'v try to be wise.,then i said some apologize'n thanks.,i maked a conclusion from wht u already said to me..,it realy clear'n true for me.
But then.,u asked.,"do u really want to get married this year?if so..,i'll discuss it with my mam"..,What???r u really mean that..,i can believe wht i'v read..,what a doubtful man....u said u cant.,u didnt wanna married soon.,u r not sure for manythings..,but then u said u wanna tried to make it...?
Perubahan itu terlalu cepat dan membuat ku sama sekali tidak siap. Tadi nya aku berfikir u/ melepasmu saja. Sudahlah, mungkin kau bukan yg terbaik untukku, tapi kemudian kenapa kau berubah bgtu cepat?ingin memikirkannya lg setelah kau mengucapkan tidak, knp tidak berfikir dulu sebelum menjawab, terlalu sulitkah u/ berfikr sejenak?atau saat itu kau tdk ingin memikirkannya?..,dan sekarang berubah hanya krn tidak enak?sungguh bukan itu yg ku harapkan.
Sebenarnya yg lebih kuharapkan adalah kau menyayangi ku dengan setulus hatimu dan mengatakan kau menginginkan ku.,dan menunjukan kesungguhan mu..,
Aku berusaha mengertimu semampuku.,tapi tidak kah kau bisa mengerti inginku dan mengabulkannya??.,
No comments:
Post a Comment